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Thursday, May 21, 2009
school is as boring as ever. time passed as slowly as though it never moved a wee bit. Seriously, i cant live long. i gotta die young. i see no meaning in life , as monotonous as ever. i feel very depressed,i need something to vent out my unhappiness. im contradicting. everything seems so different today, is today different or am i different?
Thanks for being there for me,when i needed you the most. Sorry for not being there for you,when you needed me the most. You're the first guy whom, gave me a plushie. i had to rack my brains over just to make you smile. i really felt that you've been very accomodating. watched my first m18 show with me. made me understand many things. i felt possessive because you needed me. will make me smile after reading your messages when i woke up. nagged at me when im sick,reminding me to eat medicine. hugged your phone to sleep just to reply me when im sick. i gave in the most,although its nothing compared to you. skipped sleeps just to meet me and meet your friends. changed a lot for me. couldnt see my committment. i would think of every now and then, even when we're not together. will make me wonder what you're doing. make me wonder what will i do or not do to prevent quarrels. really made me felt that i could trust you, when you said "trust me". made me felt really jealous over small stuffs. also felt jealous over small stuffs. :x would do things that you hate,just to do it with me. sent me the sweetest messages that would make my heart melt. chided me for being a nosy parker. told me that its the first time you ever gossip about someone. told me that you dont wanna see people kp me. made me felt proud to be able to intro you to my friends. told me that you mind how others look at how you treat me. wake up early just to send me to school or send me home. confronted me when it was my fault. pointed out my weakness. made me felt fear. fear of you doing things that are risky. fear of you being harmed in any way. fear of you hurting yourself in any way. fear of you hitting yourself and screaming away... i really dont know what i really want. i figured this to be the best way out. because no matter how much,we try to hold on. nothing is gonna work out. &please,dont say i didnt try. its just from what you see& feel. because you feel that i didnt try...doesnt meant i dont love you. now it has became your messages,that i dont ever wanna delete.
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
hi,thanks to the bbq,i've been darn sick. gotten 2day mc,and went to the doctor's yesterday. i woke up ever 15minutes in the night,just to go to the toilet. up till now, i still feel very unwell. Thanks hongsen,chengyu,peggy&dear for showing care.bleah. today didnt went to school,was still feeling terribly bad when i woke up. looked so shagged that i've dark circles around my eyes. im still having bad stomacheache and headache,having giddy spells every now and then. but this all,wont hurt more then what im feeling now. its like,i've been disconnected from the world for 2 days, yet everything seems different already. needs time to catch up. Sigh,i gonna eat medicine alr. =)
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
Went for the bbq. Was really not a good one. i rate it 3/10. Lol, 3 was because there were alot of people. but its not a good one because of the food & time constrain. everyone was so late, the food was also frozen when we started the fire. i even vomit the chicken wings after i reach home brushing teeth. but luckily dear came to find me,or imma get so bored lol D: liang flared up and said "fuck la" and i was giving a stun face. afterthat i was laughing,wtf idk why whenever people get angry,i'll laugh. okay,not including dear or some others. this bbq,made me had an sorethroat & im coughing like imma die soon. my lungs seriously hurt like mad and it uses alot of energy whenever i cough. this seriously sucked alot,and i really hate it! okay,let me tell you something funny ! Afternoon i was there,in dear's house and taking care of him. he had a high fever D: feeling cold every now and then. okay so i was like,so worried and idk what to do. so i mentioned to him,whenever my brother was sick,i would take care of him. because my mom used to take care of me like how i treat my brother now. and so,i asked dear to take a small towel. he was sleeping on my leg and yeah,i moved his head to the bolster. then i went to his kitchen,opened the freezer and took some ice. added some water on the small tower and added the ice. squeeze dry the tower and went back to dear's room. i tried to lower his temperature by moving the small towel around his face. around his neck,and finally his back. omg and i give him sudden shock LOL. i went to scare him by putting under his arm, omg his reaction is funny. he kept screaming and screaming,made me laugh quite hard ! hahahah. he dont believe im immune to it,unless im having a fever. during this whole time, his comp was playing the movie "marley&me". then afterthat,he was fast asleep.Didnt wanna wake him up, i left him a note. i went to the bbq alone,walked to mrt alone,bused to sembawang park alone. afterthat around 8pm,dear came and find me :D crap awhile,talk and walked around. at 9.45pm,we left sembawang park. bused to sembawang and trained back yishun. On the train,dear dulan.He say is because of me,but idk why. so i tried making him smile,hahahaha he so bhb please ! say i keep kiss me,actually is cause i leaning against him, and the train keep moving and shaking. therefore i kept moving. and made it seems like i kept kissing him. AND HE SMILED. LOL ! okay i laughed too :x then dear walked me to the busstop,and i delay time to accompany him wait bus D: okay and there he was,gone. and im now blogging,im very tired after the energy-draining cough and vomitting. infact im coughing like mad now,my lungs gonna burst. i wanna see a doctor t.t sigh. okay tomorrow getting results back,i guess i'd flunk my science&maths. wish me luck please ~ nights people !please remember bring thermometer okay ! Love you,my dear.
Sunday, May 17, 2009
[edit] I need serious help, my head is bursting and im gonna flare up on anyone that disturbs me or piss me off lol, im so gonna be so dulan for an unknown reason which i cant even explain it myself. omg seriously imma go mad soon,i need something to vent my anger on-.- but idk whats bothering me.fuck la. fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuck fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuck fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuck fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuck fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuck fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuck fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuck fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuck fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuck [/edit] ~Y2K~ won D: well lol, tim and limit was off form. bu we won,thanks dear for helping. bernard last minute say his hse thr's lan didnt open today. nevermind,i took over him & i got a 3rd. wahahaha. and silwu helped us for the last sync8. tim cmi =o lololol , okay nevermind luh. great game anyways, just that tim couldnt revenge for weiny. okay no hard feelings. pictures below are taken in plaza singpura with dear. that silly boy cant even smile with the ulcer under his lips. hah,sorry luh.i know its my fault for that. hope your injuries will heal soon D:
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