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Thursday, May 21, 2009
school is as boring as ever. time passed as slowly as though it never moved a wee bit. Seriously, i cant live long. i gotta die young. i see no meaning in life , as monotonous as ever. i feel very depressed,i need something to vent out my unhappiness. im contradicting. everything seems so different today, is today different or am i different?
Thanks for being there for me,when i needed you the most. Sorry for not being there for you,when you needed me the most. You're the first guy whom, gave me a plushie. i had to rack my brains over just to make you smile. i really felt that you've been very accomodating. watched my first m18 show with me. made me understand many things. i felt possessive because you needed me. will make me smile after reading your messages when i woke up. nagged at me when im sick,reminding me to eat medicine. hugged your phone to sleep just to reply me when im sick. i gave in the most,although its nothing compared to you. skipped sleeps just to meet me and meet your friends. changed a lot for me. couldnt see my committment. i would think of every now and then, even when we're not together. will make me wonder what you're doing. make me wonder what will i do or not do to prevent quarrels. really made me felt that i could trust you, when you said "trust me". made me felt really jealous over small stuffs. also felt jealous over small stuffs. :x would do things that you hate,just to do it with me. sent me the sweetest messages that would make my heart melt. chided me for being a nosy parker. told me that its the first time you ever gossip about someone. told me that you dont wanna see people kp me. made me felt proud to be able to intro you to my friends. told me that you mind how others look at how you treat me. wake up early just to send me to school or send me home. confronted me when it was my fault. pointed out my weakness. made me felt fear. fear of you doing things that are risky. fear of you being harmed in any way. fear of you hurting yourself in any way. fear of you hitting yourself and screaming away... i really dont know what i really want. i figured this to be the best way out. because no matter how much,we try to hold on. nothing is gonna work out. &please,dont say i didnt try. its just from what you see& feel. because you feel that i didnt try...doesnt meant i dont love you. now it has became your messages,that i dont ever wanna delete.
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
hi,thanks to the bbq,i've been darn sick. gotten 2day mc,and went to the doctor's yesterday. i woke up ever 15minutes in the night,just to go to the toilet. up till now, i still feel very unwell. Thanks hongsen,chengyu,peggy&dear for showing care.bleah. today didnt went to school,was still feeling terribly bad when i woke up. looked so shagged that i've dark circles around my eyes. im still having bad stomacheache and headache,having giddy spells every now and then. but this all,wont hurt more then what im feeling now. its like,i've been disconnected from the world for 2 days, yet everything seems different already. needs time to catch up. Sigh,i gonna eat medicine alr. =)
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
Went for the bbq. Was really not a good one. i rate it 3/10. Lol, 3 was because there were alot of people. but its not a good one because of the food & time constrain. everyone was so late, the food was also frozen when we started the fire. i even vomit the chicken wings after i reach home brushing teeth. but luckily dear came to find me,or imma get so bored lol D: liang flared up and said "fuck la" and i was giving a stun face. afterthat i was laughing,wtf idk why whenever people get angry,i'll laugh. okay,not including dear or some others. this bbq,made me had an sorethroat & im coughing like imma die soon. my lungs seriously hurt like mad and it uses alot of energy whenever i cough. this seriously sucked alot,and i really hate it! okay,let me tell you something funny ! Afternoon i was there,in dear's house and taking care of him. he had a high fever D: feeling cold every now and then. okay so i was like,so worried and idk what to do. so i mentioned to him,whenever my brother was sick,i would take care of him. because my mom used to take care of me like how i treat my brother now. and so,i asked dear to take a small towel. he was sleeping on my leg and yeah,i moved his head to the bolster. then i went to his kitchen,opened the freezer and took some ice. added some water on the small tower and added the ice. squeeze dry the tower and went back to dear's room. i tried to lower his temperature by moving the small towel around his face. around his neck,and finally his back. omg and i give him sudden shock LOL. i went to scare him by putting under his arm, omg his reaction is funny. he kept screaming and screaming,made me laugh quite hard ! hahahah. he dont believe im immune to it,unless im having a fever. during this whole time, his comp was playing the movie "marley&me". then afterthat,he was fast asleep.Didnt wanna wake him up, i left him a note. i went to the bbq alone,walked to mrt alone,bused to sembawang park alone. afterthat around 8pm,dear came and find me :D crap awhile,talk and walked around. at 9.45pm,we left sembawang park. bused to sembawang and trained back yishun. On the train,dear dulan.He say is because of me,but idk why. so i tried making him smile,hahahaha he so bhb please ! say i keep kiss me,actually is cause i leaning against him, and the train keep moving and shaking. therefore i kept moving. and made it seems like i kept kissing him. AND HE SMILED. LOL ! okay i laughed too :x then dear walked me to the busstop,and i delay time to accompany him wait bus D: okay and there he was,gone. and im now blogging,im very tired after the energy-draining cough and vomitting. infact im coughing like mad now,my lungs gonna burst. i wanna see a doctor t.t sigh. okay tomorrow getting results back,i guess i'd flunk my science&maths. wish me luck please ~ nights people !please remember bring thermometer okay ! Love you,my dear.
Sunday, May 17, 2009
[edit] I need serious help, my head is bursting and im gonna flare up on anyone that disturbs me or piss me off lol, im so gonna be so dulan for an unknown reason which i cant even explain it myself. omg seriously imma go mad soon,i need something to vent my anger on-.- but idk whats bothering me.fuck la. fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuck fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuck fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuck fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuck fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuck fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuck fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuck fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuck fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuck [/edit] ~Y2K~ won D: well lol, tim and limit was off form. bu we won,thanks dear for helping. bernard last minute say his hse thr's lan didnt open today. nevermind,i took over him & i got a 3rd. wahahaha. and silwu helped us for the last sync8. tim cmi =o lololol , okay nevermind luh. great game anyways, just that tim couldnt revenge for weiny. okay no hard feelings. pictures below are taken in plaza singpura with dear. that silly boy cant even smile with the ulcer under his lips. hah,sorry luh.i know its my fault for that. hope your injuries will heal soon D:
Lol, i just felt like blogging. i'm very lazy to edit everything. lazy to find back my lost links & get new cbox code. was happy uh,went to meet good friends for outing. really fun and happy even when we poke fun of others. especially ahwei, hahahahah@sharon. and at parklane,omg its fugging funny when tofu laugh @ me. ahhahahah back@tofu. LOL!!!! dear came to find me afterthat, slack around and he sent me home. send me home and we quarrelled. tml also no need meet liao,thanks uh dad. -.- oh and i have competition tomorrow,hope everything is well. okay end here. byebye. Oh and hope his curse wont come true,or imma hate him forever.
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
something bad happened yesterday. me and vinny are no longer together. but i still love him. i realise what he had done for me. didnt sleep ytd,but today went to school. i didnt even remember to wear socks or bring calculator/ruler. luckily no teacher catch me for not wearing socks. thanks jack for lending me his calculator. thanks joey for lending me ruler. my physics is so gonna flunk ^^. my poa is so gonna get A1 lol, kkthxbai. Get well soon,please eat D: i dont wanna see you having gastric. Please see a doctor soon.
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
fuck blogger fuck the western fuck my tummy fuck the new furniture coming fuck today fuck my mood. zzzzzzzzzzzzzz. haiz. today went to school. lfh bought push pop for me =) ahahaha,thanks uh. thanks for remembering my strawberry(head). Fell very sick recently... Even my mum doesn't care for me. to top on she also chu stun and hit my head-.- like wth manzxczxczxczxc,am i sway or what? really dulan day today -.- i texted dear. and dear just reply a "wa D:" when i texted him saying "dear i tml thn meet you cn. today rlly unwell." thn its like wtf, sick and wa semo ? like i dw go meet you likethat? lol. even other friends can do better like "oh take care k, see doctor uh" and my dear bf just went "wa D:" lol how nice. now my mood so ruined, im gonna go sleep. byebye. I thought solitude would bade farewell, but afterall,its still solitary that hasnt left. A-P-A-T-H-E-T-I-C /////// infact,im not the only liar around. you're infact,another liar. =)
Sunday, May 10, 2009
Its Mother's Day ! :D okay and my mother chu stun also! then i chu stun back x.x" sigh,its mother day yet its so unpleasant. dear isnt awake yet, and its like. what-a-sunday today. okay luh,dw post alr. loveyoudear. and alvin,fuck you. nosy parker. -'- walao sibeh sad. t.t dearplease faster wake up t.t Sigh,i fugging ate one whole bigbig bar of chocolate. omg wish me luck on not being fat. lol
Saturday, May 9, 2009
hehs! today went to meet dear, daddy fetched me to woodlands. and now he is playing majong =o tomorrow is mother's day. hehehe, i think im gonna share present with bro. oh and today went to dear's house,we slept from like 12pm to 5pm @.@ seriously sort of pig-ed lols. went over to causeway point with dear to buy his mother's present. he was like so pissed off on the way when we walked there. and he told me he wanna buy a bear or something cute for his mother. to make his mother "feel young" LOL ! that was what he said :x then he say make his mother feel cute,so he wanna buy something cute. end up went into gift a name,dear give a very black face. ask me help him choose,he keep say he v irritated etc. so i went in,its like a lot of people inside, squeezing around. i went in,saw this eeyore kinda cute. so i just choose and gave dear. i never knew or suspect anything was wrong until he smile. when i pass him the eeyore, he just asked "really think this is cute?" and i reply, "ya,i think its very cute" then he keep smile,and end up i knew it. it was for me. thanks uh dear! although its a very belated 2nd month present, but its fine. i really liked it alot! because it was the first soft toy any guy ever gave me. Hehs, then dear bought a cake for his mother,and he told me his mom would nag. i didnt believe luh,cause its like a token of appreciation. why would his mother wanna nag at him ?!?! then dear bought mac back to his house and eat. then when reach dear's house, he told his mom he bought a cake. guess his mom's reply ?!?!?! "shen jing bing" LOL !!!!!!!!!!! wtf i was like, O_O ?!??!? and i started laughing, and dear just gave a (-.-) face. which was cute! then we ate mac and watched dance of the dead together. the show is like a total bore ! ):< ! afterthat,at around 10plus cabbed home. dear sent me home, hehehehehe. =) and now im at home,eyes half closed blogging. okayokay, im gonna brush teeth and sleep ! nights peopleeeee. me love all my audi friends kk, im gonna miss you all. please la add my msn hyper-active@live.com can ?!?! LOL !!! okayokay love tofu also la, hahahaha no jealous worhzx. please go shopping soon, miss you lub you. i miss you & love you too. p/s: VINNY THE PIG, SO LATE DW GO HOME!!! NMM(ME) SPANK NI PIGU. HAHAHAHA! <3>
Friday, May 8, 2009
omfg lol, i made dear angry D: and im at fault. initially wanted to stop blogging. but i guess i'll keep things short :x today i spamming chocolates lol,like wtf too sad. x.x sorry luh dear, its my fault for lying. i know you forgive me alr :x but still wanna apologise luh can ? yah i love you dear. I KNOW YOU ARE READING. PLEASE TAG LOL!!!!!!!! okay kkthxbai, tml vesak day. happy praying away! good luck uh people. love dear. =)
Thursday, May 7, 2009
Today is cool day, my chinese i wrote alot. my maths i think im just nice gonna pass. Grats ler. :D ♥-ACME! -Douphu! -Pewpie! -Xuan! LOL. and my fbers, lets pwn! LOL omfg im mad. Hey!Please don't be a burden to others. Its a bit tad too much of a hassle to explain, but. Please grow up,try and think for yourself. Don't you think you need some self-reflection? Face the mirror and think,flashback. Yes ler, you should. Sorry for what happened earlier in the morning. its just that i wasnt really used to talking loud in the bus during the morning. its not that you are not being rowdy or unglamorous. i said before,even if you wore hairband just to send me to school, i wouldnt mind at all and never will. Like how we were in the past, without any understanding. but very slowly i get to know more about you, got to see you show your temper, being irritated and stuffs. i tried to understand you,but wasnt to any valid. i tried following closely behind you, but didnt have the patience. you're way too different from other guys. Slowly, i felt safety in your embrace. The feeling of being secured. There wasnt any other guys who treated me the way you did. i know i'll love you and treasure you for as long as i could. OngHuiLer ♥ ChengJiaJun
Tuesday, May 5, 2009
my mid year results will be your scoresheet as well. =) goodluck for tomorrow's combined humanity exam ! hoy, ahsoh get well soon also, dont keep sick . residue alot very smelly, deduct your salary la. okay gonna meet dear. bye
Monday, May 4, 2009
Omfg man,i swear sajeev took my pens ._. made me so pissed off and im already having a bad headache. took my favourite pen and still wanna act blur. i asked him and he merely shook his head ._. freaking indian shiat. today is en and clar's birthday :D met up with adeline and anthea, wth pretty alr luh . hahahaha ! envy their long hair omfg, where was mine btw. oh okay nevermind. tomorrow is gonna be a long day ahead, im gonna study history all the way. everytime i use opera to blog,the blog post will auto leave a line in each sentence. okay nevermind,please bless me for my wednesday test for history! t.t , okay and really, imma just decide to slap your face with my LV stuffs LOL. dont step yi ge i-am-so-rich la k. lmfao nerd ass. you are merely being patriot blindly and siding the wrong side. i will despise you and condemn you to the point whereby i think you will never, lift your head high and live with your life. <3 okay some outdated pictures to re-live my blog. hahahaha!
Peggy&Me :D Omfg, i swear this is gonna be very old-school!  
do you guys still remember? during secondary one.
and the two retards.
together with some old friends. =)
front view looks not bad!
messy table D:
this was given by weichong during class lesson. hahaha.
By dear! :D okay,i've just nice finished my taohuay. im off to bed as my eyes are closing. im gonna drift to my wonderland soon! okay byebye. =) dear,i miss you alot D: !
Sunday, May 3, 2009
Today, i just told limit. would be my happiest day in audi. turns out that im being labelled as a hacker. lmfao,dear woke up at around 6pm+ . he helped me by calling the girl. actually gonna down bunk on saturday to settle this. but shouldnt be going down because the girl said just joking etc. because of this, dear waited for me for like 40minutes in msn. waiting for me to reply his texts etc. After everything,moods are so dampened. >________> dear kept repeating saying that i left him waiting for so long. i didnt mean it,i just dontknow what to reply when you asked whether im still eating or not. i dontknow how long this might gonna take. i didnt mean it seriously, sorry dear. but my mood just somehow,got really down. to the extent that i really got this bad headache. Sigh, i know i shouldnt get moody when you are also moody. i cant help it,it just came somehow after something happen. aiya suan le lol, im fucking headache now. Sigh, sorry that i cant be the kind of girlfriend that you want me to be. really sorry. 모두를 위해 유감스러운, 사랑해요.
Omg, i seriously love korean drama series. especially those romance ones. omfg lol! every romance drama series the couple seems so sweet please. everytime after watching i always envy t.t , darn sia, 5years already since i started watching korean drama series. and i cannot stop the feeling of envy -.-, omfg im a jealous freak lolololol. i'd envy them after watching, its standard routine t.t but nevermind la, its just a show LOL, even the actor and actress are good-looking. omg,and now im stuck with another drama series, fugging hell. every drama series i like in chnl 55 are like showing on sunday at around 10.30pm -.- the show is gonna end at around 12.30am and im gonna get screwed by daddy. and everytime,i love those shows omfg. please lmfao LOL! HAHAHAHA imbal ler please. LOL, walao okay okay no more envy. but seriously,the feeling of being woo-ed and being together. is definately different, depends. might be happier or might not be. now is, I FEEL LIKE GOING OVERSEAS!!!! t.t , i wanna migrateeeeeee. lol,im mad already. i wanna go US t.t , i wanna go shopping. i wanna live in a beautiful city ! yayness o0o0o0o0o0o. i wanna live in new york city t.t or any other small town in the us. okay im not that materialistic laa okay okay. im changing please. the very noisy and crazy and unglam ler, has changed yay o0o0o0o. cause got vinny, so ler changed . =) ler want vinny manymanymanymany. ler miss vinny manymanymanymany. ler love vinny manymanymanymany. Sigh, dear i miss you. seriously i miss you manymanymany. Dear, instead of your world being black and white without me, i guess my life would be just filled with dull colours without you. Sigh,very emo sia omfg. :/ just now met dear,watched dawn of the dead. slept at 5am and woke at around 10am. while watching video with dear,was really very tired. sorry uh dear. t.t then slept at dear's house for like 3 hours. lol, was seriously tired. went to cwp and bought en's birthday present. im done with clar's and en's . im left with clifton's . then went to arcade,watch dear play tekken. he went to smoke with his friend and took bus with me. although he was tired but he still want to accompany me to cwp x.x sorry uh dear. shouldnt have dragged you along. >_> then when reach me house downstairs, me accompany him go bbq pit buy drink. went to the swing and sat down awhile before walking me back to my house. hugged dear and went into my house. texted dear and etc. its raining now, dear take care luh. i miss you & i love you. see you soon. please no comment on this post. i feeling very moody. lol x.x fugging rain never fail to make me moody.
Friday, May 1, 2009
OMGOMG, MY DEAR IS READING MY BLOG ! LOL but he rarely tags, silent reader sia ! ban ban ban LOL ! happy labour day ah, today woke up at around 2pm. prepared and went out for family day. actually meeting tony and his family for dinner. because they just came out from HK. end up went to compass point. texted poopy and she didnt wanna meet me omg sad. LOL ! then say what she at changi,and start her nonsense HAHA. weare-x change to wearebapokeliminator LOL !!! idiot right yanqi. ya i know she very idiotic. HAHA! then went to eat subway, sibeh nice omgomgomg. but no cookies alr,intending to give dear tml omfg. end up got ruffles and i ate it also. hahahaha. i ate subway meltz! i lub bacon omgomgomgomg. hahahaha. then walk around,actually gonna buy slipper,but didnt lol. jitao walk around, and bought cousin's birthday present :D maybe tomorrow go see again,cause that one was paid by dad. im meeting dear tomorrow also :D omg happy lor ! okay byebye people. :D CHILL PILL CHEER UP OKAY! omg i think i needa upload some pictures to make my blog alive @@ |
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