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hi people , i think im lagging far too much behind ,

i realise my birthday is on next sunday , woo woo .

& i've been booked by clifton & friends ! :DDDDDDDDDD

okay im starting to maple already , & maybe neglecting audi abit .
but well , i maple , baby also can maple . or else he will feel left out ): .
& people , i think i needa go out more often then to stay at home duh .
im become more and more into games & lesser going out with baby .
which i dont kinda like the feeling , but i hate the feeling of travelling long distances .
3rd december is zhicong's birthday , well . happy birthday in advance .
& he sponsered me some maple items which he doesnt need already .
because he has quitted . :DDDDDDD
okay & i think , i shall play maple & audi on alternate days .
you people say maple is lame , whatever . im the one playing .
bored or not , im the one who shall decide .
you all also not playing , cowpay so much ? like i will quit after u all cowpay likethat .
okay thats all for today maybe ?
tomorrow shall be another fucked up day for me .
my cousins are coming over to stay AGAIN ,
& im gonna fucking sleep at the living room for the fucking sake of others .
& i hate the fucking smell in my room after they left -.-
okay nvm , maybe i shall try and ton outside before they stay in my house .
or im really going to , bored die . ):
oh yes btw, im happy that deci is coming to singapore on the 8th .
infact , its a day later after my birthday , but nvm . as long as my present reaches me :D
oh well , im desperate for presents ? i wont deny .
&after 2 days of chionging , im finally level 22 , thanks to Clifton lee ! :DDDDD
& my duanehneh BEEEEE :D
okay so , tomorrow is clifton's last day working at yishun , i met him today infact .
slacked under a block & he had his braces on !
oh my god , i feel like putting on braces too man zxzxz .
maybe i shall ! before school reopen have my braces on :D

Okay ler , dont be afraid , its not gonna be painful :D
just take it easy and let it pass .
YOU SUPER POWERFUL DE LAH . EH TAHAN ONE LAH DEH .

omg okay . no more autistic-sm . i shall rest now , BYE ! :D

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Stopped at 11:59 PM

... always getting doubted .
why ? i always wondered why are we always quarrelling .
yes im really not at fault this time . i seriously AM NOT .
i just dontknow why i always get doubted by you .
whatever i say , you also reluctant to believe .
why ? tell me what should i do then ?
please ? tell me what should i do to make you believe me ?
why must you always regret after doing everything ?
do you think apologies can always help ?
do you think everytime things happen , i can forgive you ?
do you think things will still be the same as before ?
why always want things to be back in normal after doing something ,
that might not make things go back to the way it is before ?
can you stop doing things like that ?
seriously im getting very tired of all these stuffs !

im tired of crying ,
im tired of missing you ,
im tired of being doubted by you ,
&im tired of ... loving you .

if you are ready to let go , tell me .
because from now on , i shall love myself only .
thats the way , so prevent myself from getting hurt again .
is it all that what you want ? fine then .

Sigh , Headache . ):