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♥



loss of sleep @@
Thursday, May 21, 2009

Stopped at 6:33 AM


Thanks for being there for me,when i needed you the most.
Sorry for not being there for you,when you needed me the most.

You're the first guy whom,
gave me a plushie.
i had to rack my brains over just to make you smile.
i really felt that you've been very accomodating.
watched my first m18 show with me.
made me understand many things.
i felt possessive because you needed me.
will make me smile after reading your messages when i woke up.
nagged at me when im sick,reminding me to eat medicine.
hugged your phone to sleep just to reply me when im sick.
i gave in the most,although its nothing compared to you.
skipped sleeps just to meet me and meet your friends.
changed a lot for me.
couldnt see my committment.
i would think of every now and then, even when we're not together.
will make me wonder what you're doing.
make me wonder what will i do or not do to prevent quarrels.
really made me felt that i could trust you, when you said "trust me".
made me felt really jealous over small stuffs.
also felt jealous over small stuffs. :x
would do things that you hate,just to do it with me.
sent me the sweetest messages that would make my heart melt.
chided me for being a nosy parker.
told me that its the first time you ever gossip about someone.
told me that you dont wanna see people kp me.
made me felt proud to be able to intro you to my friends.
told me that you mind how others look at how you treat me.
wake up early just to send me to school or send me home.
confronted me when it was my fault.
pointed out my weakness.
made me felt fear.

fear of you doing things that are risky.
fear of you being harmed in any way.
fear of you hurting yourself in any way.
fear of you hitting yourself and screaming away...


i really dont know what i really want.
i figured this to be the best way out.
because no matter how much,we try to hold on.
nothing is gonna work out.
&please,dont say i didnt try. its just from what you see& feel.
because you feel that i didnt try...doesnt meant i dont love you.


now it has became your messages,that i dont ever wanna delete.

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